At first I was contemplating: here I grew up, discovered myself, acquired aspirations and goals, met the love of my life; these streets I walked since I could remember myself, which I could now walk with my eyes closed; this is the city that I loved, like which there is no other, I could walk to the beach in 15 min from my parents' house, I could see the rest of the city on the mountain from their balcony, a view I will never forget.
And after 2 days I remembered why I left it all.
Despite growing up in Israel and living there for more than 15 years, with each passing year it was made clear to me that I don't have a future there.
It began with the laid back rude and in-you-face mentality and horrifyingly unfair prices, and ended with the boiling hot weather and the none existing gothic (or any) subculture that is not welcomed nor understood there.
Visiting Israel after 3 years of life in Berlin is like a blow in the face. I am so thankful for growing up there, and am proud I left.
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| This is not my parents' house, but a lot of houses in my neighborhood look like this. Ruins from the inside and out. |
Also, look at this pretty necklace I bought there:
Now back to studying, playing music and eventually - contemplating some more.
Maria Alexander
That's a great photo of you! so retro. good for you for following your heart and finding your own way, and for finding a place where you belong.
ReplyDeletethank you very much, I do feel much better living where I am now.
DeleteSeconding the above; it's a great photo. I think it's really hard, moving away from such a significant place for you even where it's for the best, so I'm glad you reached peace with it.
ReplyDeleteThank you! It wasn't hard to leave, I longed for it and it was my dream. I guess it was harder to come back as an outsider.
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ReplyDeleteI understand your feelings. I think Galicia is the most beautiful region in Spain, that the forests, mountains, rivers, beaches, everything is amazing and somehow stil virgin or well preserved. But on the other side, the mentality and lifestyle are still very close minded. Galicia is half sorrounded by the Atlantic ocean. It gives you the feeling of living in an island. Moreover, there is a pre-establish solid base of what is "normal". From physical features: girls must have long brown straight hair, be thin, small; to appearance: take into account that the Inditex emporium (Zara, Bershka, Massimo Duti, Lefties, Stradivarius, etc.) was born in A Coruna, and the dress code of what is normal is accented by consumerism like nowhere else. For example, there are studies that say that this town is the place of Spain where more people live over their economic possibilities. This can be seen everywhere. One of the best decisions of my life was moving to Berlin, and I would not say that Berlin is a beautiful city, but it is true that the most interesting people move to Berlin and here you can create your own reality adapted to your thoughts. We can continue this conversation with a coffee any day... :)
ReplyDeletethanks for sharing! It was very interesting to read, had no idea about all those brands.
DeleteLiving on an island - tell me about it. Israel feels pretty much the same, a place that can never be connected to Europe and when you have a different mentality you easily fall out of place, needless to say when you're alternative.
I would love to have a chat with you about it :)
Really liked this post! :) And that necklace is super pretty!
ReplyDeletethank you dear!
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