22nd Gothy Birthday

Yesterday was my first birthday in Berlin. I've turned 22 and that probably won't mean anything to me until next year when I'll get older again ;)

I had a fun and romantic day with my dear Boris. He woke me up with roses and gave me the birthday present I'd asked for- a Tibetan singing bowl :)
We then went to a forest near our house for a walk to great the Autumn once more, I took some pictures of the beautiful Nature I'm so happy to be surrounded with. Later on we made a birthday pizza [since I was a little girl I always had pizza for birthday instead of a cake, because I dislike cakes. I had candles on the pizza when I was little :)] and drank a whole bottle of bubbly with Mozart chocolate :P
And then we went to an 80's party. Sounds like a lot, but it was a quiet house hang out throughout the day, just Boris and I.

Here are some pics from the forest!

The beautiful singing bowl! It has 2 sticks, one of wood, and the other covered with leather. The two produce different sounds. I've already used it for a bath meditation, it was amazing!

 How I love Fungi! Yum yum XD

There was such magical atmosphere that day. I've spoken with all my family members, but sadly nor with my own parents. That was a bit odd, and although both wrote me very touching birthday wishes, not talking to my mother in person on my birthday made a lonely atmosphere. It was weird and didn't to good to me the entire day. But with Boris by my side I couldn't ask for better company and bigger love. 

Moving on to the party pics :)
It was great to see my dear friend Marta and hang out, the music was so much fun and the atmosphere got better after dancing to Joy Division, She Past Away [I've also happened to see them live the day before my birthday, photos will come soon!] and In Death It Ends.

Face: Catrice photo finish makeup + powder + Jade [IL] concealer

Eyeshadow: Sparkly white from a Careline [IL] palette of mine + black eyeshadw by L'oreal [not cruelty free and I don't recommend it]

Eyebrows + Eyeliner: Caltice gel liner

Lips: Careline "very purple" lipstick + a little bit of black lipstick

Mascara: Manhattan

I love how it looks as if I have false lashes on, but I don't! False lashes are an equivalent of masochism in my opinion.

I then spontaneously felt so glamorous, a feeling which got followed by a ton of selfies, something I haven't done in a while [if to exclude the special face posts I do for you guys]. I felt so deffrokkk....

And last but not least, the party outfit:

Don't mind the "Maria" behind me, it's a sign for our room with Boris that I've made so that our ever changing flatmates will know our own names.

I've also finally worn my new combat boots to a party! They were a blessing to dance with. I can't describe the pleasure of living in these shoes! XD

I had a great time yesterday, I've felt that I've changed so much since my last birthday, my surroundings changed and the person who I am has developed [thank god]. I also look nothing like myself a year ago, blonde and deathrock-ish, I like how it looks!

However, I feel that for the past 2 days I've experienced quite a few ups and downs, made mistakes and resolutions. I hope I will become a better person and continue to learn about myself even more.

I thank each day for having someone so special like Boris by my side.

For those who have wished me a happy birthday privately and on FB- thank you so much. I am so lucky to have so many people who love me. It's a blessing and it makes me happy and alive.

N. Finsternis